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All that I've put in.
All that I've sacrificed.
All that I've done.
All for nothing.
Nothing.
What a failure.
What a mistake.
What a tragedy.
What a loser.
What a fool.
Doomed.
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My heart. Broken. Empty.
My soul. Withered. Dead.~
I'd be better off dead.
This is ridiculous.
What did I do?
I need to know.
Please make this stop.
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5 comments:
Rejections are not necessarily the end of the world, at least you shouldn't let it be the end of YOUR world. Love is overrated sometimes, what more we youngsters, so oblivious to what love really is. Why make this experience a painful one, why not make it an educational one. Learn from your mistakes, conduct post mortems to find out where you went wrong, why everything resulted in this one thing and learn from that, so that you can avoid making the same mistakes in the future. Flowers aplenty, the perfect girl is not just one, this world has 6 billion people, you're bound to find another, all it takes is time. Patience is not something humans were born with, we all want instant results. Somethings take time, its like fermentation, like wine or cheese, it all takes time. The longer, the better, the more experience you gain, the more you immerse yourself in. Your future is bright, very bright. Love is just one aspect of life, love is just one part of life, albeit a big part, but still just a part. It shouldn't be the main factor to end everything, it shouldn't be the key point to deduce. You have so much more potential, so much more time, you're still so young, 18 years old, you have 70, maybe even 80 years more for you to find the right girl. Learn from the failures you encounter on the way, don't just give up now. What will the girl think if she sees you like this? After all, doesn't her happiness matter the most? Sometimes we just don't want to let go, because we still cling on to that last piece of hope, but sometimes it's really that last piece of hope that will destroy us. Let go, let go before even friendship seems impossible. Here's something for you.
I held you close to me,
tried to surround you and protect you with my love,
to keep you safe from all harm,
but it was not what you needed.
I wanted to keep you for myself, encircled, sheltered,
instead of allowing you to grow and flourish,
spread your wings, explore your potential,
I now realize I cannot contain you
and that your happiness is best discovered without me.
To let you go, knowing I must set you free,
This is the hardest task I have ever done,
fly away, fly high, fly free
go from my sight quickly and dont look back,
for if you do, you will see a smile covering a broken heart,
but the tears of loss are slowly replaced
with the tears of joy knowing your happiness will soon follow.
May your wings take you to magical places
and all your dreams be fulfilled.
Be happy in all you do and may you find your true love
That is what I have always wanted for you.
Take care Ryan. There's so much more to life, don't put it to waste. The right girl will pop by at the right time.
Wow. Thank you. I guess i really needed that. Don't mind if i steal that little last bit for my upcoming post. It's really meaningful. Thanks again.
I just think i deserve my answer and my chance to say what I long to say to her.
Then do it instead of procrastinating, man! I may not speak as flowery as anonymous but... just do it instead of dragging on! You've dragged on long enough!
I where got speak flowery t_t
one thing lionel.. i'm not dragging on. i want to tell her.. it's jus that i dun get the chance.
she's running away from me.. avoiding and hiding.. i dun know if i'm scaring her away or wadeva.. so it's not that i want to drag on and not let her know bout it.. i will.. i have to.
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