I hate myself.

I'm sorry.

Pretenders

I laugh with fake friends.
Oh, how they make my hair stand on end.
And the way they preach and pledge,
Of things they can only pretend
That they might actually give a damn.

Oh, just fuck off and scram.

Happy birthday Jiayi! ♥

A New Lease

You're such a delicate bliss,

One I'm glad I didn't miss.
And darling You're so hard to resist,
Once You blow me a kiss.

Baby, you give this life a new lease.

Burn

He's falling again,
Feel his mind caving in.
For his world has taken a turn,
Now his past has to burn.

Sometimes I wish I could just end it all.
Fuck my life.

There's A Meaning

To start drinking,

Gets me thinking,

Why this life has no meaning.

To start feeling,

Why I'm living,

Makes me realize what keeps me going.

Baby,

It's all the times

I see You smiling.

Fucking two-faced fucks.

Grow a ball or two.

Fucking twat.

It Fades

So long, memory.
May you Rest In Peace.

08/08/06

Moonlight

They gathered as One,

Drinking for the Sun.
To be never undone,
In the Moonlight they had fun.

Four Men as One.

Back At You

Don't incriminate,
'Cause You're so full of it.
So just staple gun those lips,
And let Me be at peace.

Green Eye

Sitting at His corner.

Looking on with those eyes.
Those green judgemental eyes.
And as His blood boils over,
It sears his every vein.

All hail..
The Return of the Green-Eyed Monster.

Getting mind-fucked.
'Cause I'm such a shmuck.

Of Visions & Dreams

A hell that he dreads reliving again.
This memory that never fails to pain.
And the fear of losing the We he sees.
This vision that seeks to haunt his dreams.

Relive This

To lie next to you,
When the world stands still.
Stay awake and watch you wander,
Into a dream of splendid hours.
And by just holding your hand,
It feels like I'm reliving It again.

This world may be cruel,
But it's alright..
'Cause we're taking this step for two.

Not Just A Phase

This feeling that can't be erased.

A feeling that can never be replaced.
I hope and pray it's not just a phase.
'Cause this chemistry could blow up this place.

This feels just right.

A Mismatch

I feel so distant.
Like a total mismatch.
But still I try,
To carry on this charade.
And here I long,
For someone to hold this hand.

Yes,
So that I can feel again.

Heels Over Head?

He's reminiscing of a time.
A time when a life was short and lost.
But now His heels are over His head.
She spins him upside down.

Oh, this choice He has to make.
So fucking inevitable.

Summer

DQ! This one's for Y O U! =)

Welcome to Bitch Club

The 8 Rules of Bitch Club

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2. Second rule of Bitch Club is, you DO NOT talk about Bitch Club.
3. If someone says stop, taps out or goes limp (from getting bitched), bitching ain't over!
4. Be proud of what you bitch about.
5. One bitching at a time.
6. Wait, screw rule 5.
7. Bitching will go on as long as they have to.
8. If this is your first time in Bitch Club, you have to BITCH!

Play These Strings

This... feeling.

It feels all too familiar.
Yet, I'm fighting this war.
A battle within this detached heart.

You're tugging on my strings.

I FUCKING PASSED!!!

Oovoo This!

When the sun beats down, in the stillness of night,
We oovoo-ers breathe the life.
Crazy bitch rants and random headbanging.
Sultry poses and jarring singalongs.
Who gives a damn bout the unglam?

We crash the night to break the day.
Oovoo-ers, we ooze bitchay!

Be Kind Rewind?

This feeling's slowly ebbing away.
'Cause in my daydreams I see you fade.
If time was kind to let it rewind,
I'll right the wrongs and make it all divine.

Slowly it fades away.
If only We can make it stay.

Haunt Me Memory

There he sits.
Taking his last drag.
Daydreaming of a girl he seeks.
Twirling his drink,
He wanders into a Memory.
A Memory he must learn to set free.

The Scene

There she goes.
Running.
Away from the scene.
From this Heart.
The one that's worn on this sleeve.

For Two?

Is it the icy cold waters?
Or the fear of Uncertainty?
But here's my hand
As we'll be taking the dip for two.

It's ok. It's alright.
They still don't yet.
I know. I tried.
No, wait...
I'm still trying.

Forever Young

Hmmm..
I wonder if they celebrate birthdays in heaven.
And if you're listening,
Happy Birthday Nikki.

Don't Run Away

I've kept it all hidden and disguised.
To a point where there's not much left to hide.
But there's only one thing that holds me back,
From the truth that has not be said.
'Cause in my dreams You turned and fled.
Please don't run away and leave this Heart detached.

School's a bitch.

Unravel The Mystery

You're seamlessly wrapped in secrets
Now, allow me to unravel them,
Miss Oh-So-Mysterious.

Oh Damn Regret

This feels like a mistake.
It will be a BIG mistake.
A mistake involving 3 fucking years.

And I would like to mean something.
I want to be more than just that.
Yeah, someday...
I'll matter.

These Are The Nights

Tinkling on these keys

So that you'll be at ease.
Whispering in your ear
Three words I'd like You to hear.
Tracing your lips
Oh, they both scream kiss.
Gracing your cheeks
'Cause silk never felt like this.

Yes, dreaming of these
On a night like this.

Take it easy.
Take it slow.
Cause if you don't.
There she goes.

We Have Lift-off

Sweep me off my feet.

I'm just tired of walking.
Tired of treading on this path.
A path strewn with broken pieces of me.

They Don't Yet

I could read your lips, but they don't make sense.

They both scream kiss when your eyes don't yet.
No, they don't yet.

Out Of Stock

So out of stock.
Grey Goose, where did you go?

The Bug

Now I'm speechless, over the edge and just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this Love Bug again.
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this Love Bug again.

Yeah, again.
And this time, I'll set it right.
What's your next move Ryan?

Smile

I'm breathing for two.

I'd break my legs falling for you
I'd give anything to purchase that smile.
Even if it only lasts for awhile.

Take A Seat?

I'm sharing a drink with a memory

And a laugh with an empty seat.
So will You come now
And sit here with me?

Skipping beats, blushing cheeks.
I am struggling daydreaming, of the We I see.
Yet here I lay, left in bits
Recovering from the shudders of reality.

You get me every time.

Do You See?

Do you see the signs?

It would be nice if you'd notice...
Yeah, it would be nice.
Real nice.

The Plunge

Will you take the plunge with me?

Will you dare to dream..
Will you dare to love..
Will you take the next step forward..
With me?

I'm not holding back from the edge anymore.
I'm not going to just dip my toes in.
Not this time.
This time, I'm diving in head first,
Into the abyss of Uncertainty.

Have you ever started
That brand new day?
Had a second chance
And thrown it away?

ORD!

1.. 2.. 3..

Now come on, just say it with me.

...

..

.

O R D LOH!!!

I don't know what to fcking do.
So fcking lost.
I just wanna dream my dreams.
But no. I gotta come back down to Earth.
God, I seriously hate reality-fcking-checks.
I fcking do.

Pardon the angst.

Dream. Not.

I should just dream small.
Or nothing at all.
'Cause when you do, you'll savour the Uncertainty.
But when you dream big, brace yourself for the big let down
'Cause it'll just crash down on you, and knock you out cold.

'Nuff said.

Schmuck

What a schmuck.

This ain't how I roll.

So I guess You've changed things.

Gosh, I'm such a schmuck.

Fuck.

Oscars

Heath Ledger - Best Supporting Actor

This is why I watched The Dark Knight 16 times and counting.

Obsession you say. It's an understatement.

Sorry

This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the pretty things she did.
Hey, you know you keep me up in bed.
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all these fucked up things I did.
Hey, maybe, baby you could keep me up in bed.

My Konstantine...

Just bring me home.

All hail the Heartbreak kid.

Crossroads

Here I am.

At the crossroads of my life.
I've procrastinated too long.
Yes, far too long.
All this while, wandering aimlessly.
I feared choice.
I feared change.
I failed to act.
But now's the time to set a path.
A path that makes, or breaks me.
The rite of passage, or so they say.

"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase."

Faith? What faith?
The last time I had too much faith, it backfired on me.
Still, there's no changing it.
I need the first big step.
Maybe these crossroads never existed.
Maybe it's just a manifestation of my mind.
A very cruel one, I must say.
But there's no fooling myself.

So...
what's it gonna be?

Dilemma

I've got to make the right choice.

But what is the right choice?

Singapore? Perth?

Do I stay? Do I go?

What course do I take?

I hate it when I've got to crack my head up like that.

Time to consider my options.
Hopefully the right one.


2009 is starting to feel a little ominous.
It doesn't help when you lose your voice on the first day.

Turn of the Tide?

Good-fckin-bye 2008!

You have not been kind to me.

So here's a whiff of my ass!

Aloha 2009!

I trust a change in fortunes.

I sense a turn of the tide.

Please don't disappoint.