What's in my backyard?

The "little" scaly bastard.

~

Yeap. That's the thing that lives in my backyard. Just yesterday, on a bloody HOT sunday afternoon, my neighbours gave me an unexpected call. Apparently, they claimed to have seen a HUGE snake in their backyard. Right. So yes, being the extremely nice gentleman that I am, I offered to take a look. Sure enough, I saw a wickedly long tail popping out from behind some pails and whatever else you keep at a washing corner. Went to take a closer look and started tracing the "snake's" tail... and it led me to a pair of hind legs with hooked tallons. Wow, a snake with limbs. Right, so it wasn't a snake. Gee Einstein, you think so?

Here comes the fun part. We called the police to ask for some "professional" assistance. But guess what? They turned us down, claiming they won't deal with a MONITOR LIZARD in your home unless it escapes into the public. Wow, that was really helpful mate. So being the ONLY guy at the scene, given the fact that my daredevil father is off running somewhere, I had to handle the situation. You kiddin' me right?

Alright. So here was what I did. To get a better look at it, and probably give me enough space to "catch" the thing, I moved the pails outta the way and next thing I knew... BOOM! The lizard just lept out and started making a run for it. Everyone went hysterical and started running and jumping onto stools, basically just trying to get out of the monitor lizard's way. Boy, was that thing huge. It was probably 2 metres long at least. My neighbour started screaming for me to grab the damned thing and I was like, "WTH!? What do you want me to do after I get it?". Ok. So being a MAN, I had to do something - I grabbed the lizard's tail.

Don't laugh. I'm fcking serious. The thing was writhing so wildly that I eventually let go of it's tail (with great pleasure). It leapt into the drain and scrambled away to god-knows-where it went. End of story.

Sorry folks if you expected me to wrestle Mr. Scaly. It had "suicide" written all over it and my ba**s ain't that big. Although it would have been 'fun' to catch the damned thing, and have a nice lil picture of me with my head stuck in it's mouth on the front cover of the Straits Times Home section.

Happy Birthday

Happy 19th Birthday Patrick n Jolene! Hope you two had a good one! :)



and here's another Happy Birthday to you, Nikki.
If only you were here...
If only...

Wow.. that sucks

So sick of getting bored.

I need some excitement.

My entire plans for this weekend was screwed.

And now, another week of repairing vehicles that should just get scrapped.

What a load of shite.

Done

It was wrong of me.
I held on to a feeling that had nothing left to it.
I'm just too blind to see.

Oh...

And the deed is done.
It felt good. Really good.

Don't Matter

It's alright.

It don't matter anymore.

But...

Do you even know what you're looking for?

Searching

I'm still searching for it..


So...


Will you point me in the right direction then?

A Longing

I miss you


you know i do.

Turn it Back

Can it ever be the same?

I would like to feel once again.

Drained

Life has been pretty f-ing meaningless these few weeks. Just fixing vehicles all f-ing day long and there's nothing to look forward to at the end of the f-ing long day. I need a damn change. A good one. I hope.

This feels like..

Yeah, I think you know what this feeling is.

It ain't good.



Yeap, just fuck it Ryan.

Just fuck it.

Reminisce

I miss . . .



the smell of your hair.

the taste of your lips.

the warmth of your touch.

the times when you would just lie next to me.

&

the way you play with my fingers when I sleep.





Can it ever be the same?

Boston

I think I'll go to Boston.

I think I'll start a new life.

I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name.

I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,

I think I'll get a lover and fly 'em out to Spain.

I think I'll go to Boston.

I think that I'm just tired.

I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.

I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of sunset,

I hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice, oh yeah.

~

Nice song.

Let's go to Boston baby.

Boozed out

I think my liver's gonna die real soon.

Seriously.

And my lungs are gonna burn in hell.


Trying to stop.
But yeah, give me a month or two.
And I'll see it through.


I promise

The Reason

There's only one.

It's just me.

It's always been.

never good enough.

for you.

for anyone.

Uncertainty

I feel uneasy.

I feel crappy.

It's just this feeling of uncertainty.

Is it me?

Not able to see.

What's going on behind me.

Just getting kicked.

Cause I'm too afraid to seek.

It kills me.

Revealed

Let it out.



No more secrets.



No more deceit.



Let's wait and see.



I'm sure there's more than meets the eye.



So let it out.



Let's wait and see.

What if?

Few days back, got into one hell of an accident.

Maybe malaysian drivers should just stay off our roads.

My taxi got hit twice.

Smacked my head against the window and thank god it doesn't hurt anymore.

~

And just a day before that, a very dear friend of ours met with a fatal accident.

I mean, what are the fucking possibilities.. Fuck.

~

After going through the last few days feeling like total fucked up shit, I sit back and think - "What if I'd sat on the other side of the cab?".

I'd probably be meeting up with the departed way earlier than I thought, and just put an end to a totally messed up life.

~

Another part of me feared death. I was scared. Scared shitless.

The bright years ahead with friends and family.

I still haven't done many things that I dream of accomplishing,

and I'm still not fucking 21.

Yeah, fuck.

~

I didn't want to leave you

Used

I feel used.

Like insignificant thrash.

Just like paper.

When you need it, write on it.

But when you had enough,

Burn it. Tear it. Crush it.

Do whatever to it.

~

So just use me.

And tell me when you're done.

Goodbye

It was a call.
A call that I would never want to pick up.
The words slowly registered in my head as the news came through.
It hit me. It hit me bad.
And the tears just came.
I didn't want to believe it.
None of us did.

So this is all I can say,
Goodbye our dear friend.
May you find your rest.
You'll be missed.

We'll meet again... someday.


But not yet..

Not yet.

What a shit week

Had a couple of drinks tonight with some old pals (Weineng, Eugene, Evan & YangZhi), had a good talk with them, especially Yang Zhi, who's gone MIA since forever. Haha.. it was good catching up with him again. Good ol' times eh? And this week was one hell of a shit hole. 2008 hasn't really been kind to me.

I'm sorry for everything..



I just need some time..

Countdown

The Endevils.

The Bao & I.

Jo & Jas.

Cheers Ivan. Remind me not to drink beer ever again.

PMF and Bao gettin high = not good.

Brandon, MJ (stoned) & Sean.

Had a great dinner at Timbre.

Live band that night was awesome.

Caught the fireworks outside Raffles. Fantastic.

Until some idiot from above started raining down sparkles on people below.

Police as usual did nothing. Sigh.

Attempted clubbing afterwards but the guys weren't in the mood for it...

So... we chilled at my place, drank more booze and knocked out after that.

What a great way to kick off the new year.

Perfect.

Rough ground

nothing was meant to last..

does this mean it's over?


guess the blame's on me...

again..



when will i ever get it right?

bury me.

Wish Upon A Star

A shooting star..

Couple of days back, Brandon called us up for a gathering at Chompchomp. Managed to meet up with MJ, Meifang, KC and Brandon for some satay and drinks. Jolene joined us later after KC left for Changi to watch meteor showers with his pals. Headed off to MJ's place after deciding that we were gonna get another hang over together... again. Jolene stayed fer a while before she left for a friend's b'day party. But Jasmine came over soon after - fair trade, i guess. :)

We were chilling outside on his balcony, having a good load of vodka, ciggs (ermm.. yeah), cookies, prawn crackers, cereals etc. when Brandon and I caught a glimpse of a flash in the sky. Brandon saw the whole thing, I sort of saw it from the corner of my eye. So from then on, we glued our eyes on the star lit night sky, trying to catch the next shooting star that flashed past us. . . and we finally did. My first!

Meifang and I could not get enough of it, so we remained outside catching a couple more shooting stars. In total, I think I caught 9-10 or so falling stars, including one HUGE star streaking above our heads that no one else saw. Lucky me eh?

Sadly someone wasn't there to catch it with us.

Made a couple of wishes..

Hope they come true..

ATW Cohesion Day

It's weird to know that the army can come up with bowling outings for us trainees. Well, I'm not complaining here, just hope that there'll be more of these next time. Won't want to be stuck in that dreaded workshop for the rest of my 2 years, would I?

We were made to fall in at some recreational centre at 0830, and thank god they didn't make us fall in in platoon level and report our strength, which would look VERY ridiculous. Just imagine 4 platoons in civilian clothes standing in sediah position. Ok, never mind bout that. So for the rest of the morning, we were made to compete against one another in a bowling competition. I've never touched a bowling ball since secondary school days? Oh wait.. I did play some bowling in Perth, but I'm sure one game won't matter much. Right, so we played the first round, where the top 5 players from each platoon would compete again in the next and final round. It was surprising that I got the highest in my platoon, but sure enough, the next round confirmed my poor consistency in bowling. But nevertheless, we came in 2nd, and were rewarded with a hamper of tidbits that the rest of the platoon devoured in seconds.

Well, at least we had a great time. Right guys?

ATW Platoon 2.

Yeap, that's us.

Platoon 2 Top 5.
L-R: 2nd Warrant Officer Tay and Khor, Faisal, Me & Muqsit.

Phay, Sia, Sebastian and me.

One more time please..

~

Over and Out.

Ryan a.k.a predx

In loving memory..

Moving along,

But still I wish.

Still I pray.

Still I look back and dream.

It's those moments You spent with me.

It's those words You said to me.

And still I lie here and dream

What could have been.

What was meant to be.

What was taken from me.

...

In Your loving memory

080806

Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows

Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows

~

This's one FRIGGIN' good book!

Great ending. Love it.

But damn... after reading it.. it gives you an empty sorta feeling..

Damn.

Think I'll start the series all over agin.

Yeap.

Good idea.

Not again.

Useless.

Wasted.

Broken.

So bury me..

...

....

...

Another one of those days...

I just feel so ... down.

Out.

P.O.P!

Some couple of hours before our Passing Out Parade (12/06/07)...

~

View from Taurus 3...

Awww.. ain't it pretty? Miss falling in and running round that red track..

Welcome to our level (home)..

That's our Taurus helmet n ermm... spear/parade stick??

That's my wife.. Her name's M-16 AR-15 a.k.a Nikki.

WARNING!
The following slide contains NC-16 material for brief nudity...
Featuring...
...
..

Jie Wei's butt:


The dopes of Taurus 3. We've got Alan, Ben & last butt not least... Jie Wei. Sigh...

AND while some people were showering shamlessly in the toilet,
Some hardworkin fellas were tirelessly polishing their parade boots..

And just if you were curious, those hardworking fellas would be Raqib, Yan Jia, Raj, Salahuddin & ME! Oh yeah..
~
Some hours later during the parade:

TAURUS Company! I'm in there... somewhere.

The 'glorious' march past. Ok.. XL look's friggin hilarious with that white condom.. *cough*.. white strap attached to his waist.

YYYAAAAARRRGGGGHHH!!!

Ladies and Gentlemen...

We're proud to present to you, from BMTC School 2...

...THE TRAINED.. SOLDIERS
YYYEEEEEEEE-HAAAAAAARR!!!

Taurus 3!

Say cheeeeese! Platoon Sergeant Aidil and ORD-ing Sergeant Nick had no idea what's installed for them...

Fly Sergeant Nick... FLY! now.. that's for punishing us all the time. =P

Platoon Sergeant Aidil, you didn't think we would've forgotten you... did ya?

Presenting....... Father John Jr.!!!!

Man... we felt like celebrities! Everyone was snappin away at us! No kiddin..

Recruits no more.. We're PRIVATES! (L-R: Private Henri, Erwan, Ryan, Rashid & Calli)

The proud privates from Taurus 3 Section 1! Yeah baby!
~

Congratulations fellow mates of Taurus 3!

We're officially Privates!

May we meet again in the future...

It's been a pleasure doing push ups, running and getting tekan-ed with you guys!

Thanks for the great memorable times in BMT..

...

..

IT WAS A BLAST!

~

WE ARE THE ONES..

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS..

WE WILL ALWAYS BE TAURUS 3!!

KICK ASS!

~

Peace out.

PRIVATE Ryan a.k.a predx.

=)

The Last Supper

TAURUS 3 SECTION 1

Presents to you...

THE LAST SUPPER! (literally..no kiddin)

The Men of Taurus 3 Section 1.

(L-R: Erwan, Calli, Raqib, Jie Wei, Ryan, Salahuddin, XL, Henri, Father John, Leo, Yan Jia & Raj)

We had anything and EVERYTHING you need! oh.. and that's Father John fer u!

It's Taurus 3 Party Time!

Getting HIGH on Ribena! *glug glug glug*... ahhh..

Leo with his ever retarded look. He doesn't look it, but I and the rest of my section assure you that he's one retarded time bomb.

Me and Rizzwan. Isn't he from section 3?

We're bringing SEXAY back.

Father and Erwan.

Me, Yan Jia and Calli (who's looking pretty retarded as well!)

I take JOY in killing Yan Jia... cuz he stole my name.

The food wasn't enough... so we had to fight fer it.

The 3 ermm.... stooges? just exclude me..

Platoon Sergeant Aidil stealing some of our cookies.. Ha...kiddin.. he was invited.

Mess with one of us, and you mess with ALL of us.

~

OK.. I must admit, it was more of a cam whoring session.

Next post

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P.O.P!

Over & Out.

Ryan a.k.a predx