Sweet Uncertainty

2012-02-10T01:02:00.000+08:00

Your silence is murder.

To a Girl

2012-02-05T10:46:00.004+08:00

"This is to a girl who got into my head,
With all the pretty things she did.
Hey, you know,
You keep me up in bed.

This is to a girl who got into my head,
With all these fucked up things I did.
Hey, maybe, baby,
You could keep me up in bed."

2012-01-13T01:12:00.002+08:00

If only it was easy.

If only...

2012-01-09T22:48:00.001+08:00

No one ever gets to see what could've been.

2012-01-02T01:28:00.005+08:00

The choices we make

Only regrets and mistakes.

And the demons we know

Only mirrors will show.

Criminal

2012-01-02T00:54:00.004+08:00

"Leave me out with the waste

This is not what I do.

It's the wrong kind of place

To be thinking of you.

It's the wrong time

For somebody new.

It's a small crime

And I got no excuse."

Never Ever After

2011-12-04T11:24:00.005+08:00

"A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other. Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever."

Shit. Sometimes, maybe never at all.

Right/Wrong

2011-10-27T00:57:00.002+08:00

It's not wrong to dream, is it?

2011-10-02T04:34:00.000+08:00

Like a moth to a flame.

The Fool

2011-09-25T14:23:00.004+08:00

The part of him that no one will know.
It's hard for him to let it show.
For the world will hate and curse this fool,
'Cause no man can cleave his heart...
And give it to two.

2011-09-25T14:19:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile since I slept with a smile on my face.
Thank you.

Solitude

2011-09-05T10:54:00.002+08:00

Laugh, and the world laughs with you;

Weep, and you weep alone;

For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth,

It has trouble enough of it’s own.

Sing, and the hills will answer;

Sigh, it is lost on the air;

The echoes bound to a joyful sound,

But shrink from voicing care.

Rejoice, and men will seek you;

Grieve, and they turn and go;

They want full measure of all your pleasure,

But they do not want your woe.

Be glad, and your friends are many;

Be sad, and you lose them all;

There are none to decline your nectared wine,

But alone you must drink life’s gall.

Feast, and your halls are crowded;

Fast, and the world goes by;

Succeed and give and it helps you live,

But it cannot help you die.

There is room in the halls of pleasure

For a long and lordly train;

But one by one we must all file on

Through the narrow aisles of pain.

- Solitude, by Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Do you know?

2011-08-10T01:54:00.002+08:00

Will she ever know

What his heart has to show?

I won't be nice

2011-03-04T23:17:00.002+08:00

Firstly, stop telling every-fucking-one that you're a nice person, or the nicest person they'll ever meet. 'Cause frankly, you're not. And I won't be.

You incriminate and discriminate at your own will. But honestly, judge all you want. The world is only judging you back. You complain and rant about not being good enough, and not being up to par for your own standards. Thing is, that's all you do. Run your mouth off. How bout trying something new and actually do fucking something about it? I've got issues with myself, but heck, at least I fucking try. You're insecure? You think you're the only one? WRONG. So fucking wrong. So change you ignorant prick. Don't try bringing down other people just so you can make yourself feel that little much better.

I am not someone you can fuck around and come to me whenever you're down, alone, or just plain fucked up. Yes, you hate people like that too. Well, guess what? Look in the fucking mirror and fuck your own face. So before you go accusing others of running back to you when you think they don't treasure your company and are only going back to you because they feel lonely, think again pal, FUCKING THINK! Just hear what you're saying. 'Cause I clearly remember those times when you're drowning in your own shit, and suddenly we are the people you hang out with. The people you turn to, the people that stood by you, who went out of their way to accommodate you into their plans. Yeah. People like us. With filth like you grovelling at our feet. Have fun being left out? You threaten people with those words? Honestly, who the fuck do you think you are? Oh and greeting me with a middle finger and thinking it's funny and hip doesn't fly with me.

You bitch about how you've gone down the pecking order in terms of group selection. See what incompetence does to you. You're the epitome of it. So before you go crying and complaining about this selection process, just look at yourself and try to understand where the fuck we're coming from.

So run home and brag about cutting yourself. You think you've experienced pain. You think your life is shitty. Well, let me tell you a little something. You ain't experienced shit. You want to experience pain? I'll give it to you. Cut yourself? Oh please, been there done that. It's stupid how even in your situation you're actually taking self mutilation or suicide as an option. Then all I can say is you haven't seen life. And that it's about time you grow up and learn your fucking role.

In Control?

2010-12-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

I would hate to see me out of control...

Forgive & Forget?

2010-12-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

To forgive.
And to forgive oneself.
Now, why does it feel...
Like I'm taking the easy way out.

Accuse me? Oh, excuse me!

2010-10-06T12:01:00.002+08:00

Think twice before putting me on the line.
You think you're right, but I guess you're just blind.
So how bout a lesson,
I think you need my intervention.
I'll just break you with my fists,
And make you bleed from your face.

Oh you arrogant disgrace.

Cocky Fuck

2010-08-17T23:13:00.003+08:00

When a word is too fucking big for you, don't fucking use it.
When someone gives good fucking advice, learn to fucking take it.
Cuz sometimes you're not all that fucking big.
You're not all that fucking good either.
So fucking learn to quieten down,
Step the fuck back and see that you ain't that fucking brilliant.
Yes, learn, you fucking cocky little fuck.

Oh wait, do you even know what it fucking means to fucking learn?
Why don't you just go thesaurus the fuck out of it and still not know what it fucking means. Fucking prick.

2009-12-09T22:51:00.001+08:00

I hate myself.

I'm sorry.

Pretenders

2009-12-05T03:39:00.002+08:00

I laugh with fake friends.
Oh, how they make my hair stand on end.
And the way they preach and pledge,
Of things they can only pretend
That they might actually give a damn.

Oh, just fuck off and scram.

2009-11-15T15:15:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Jiayi! ♥

A New Lease

2009-10-15T23:20:00.004+08:00

You're such a delicate bliss,

One I'm glad I didn't miss.
And darling You're so hard to resist,
Once You blow me a kiss.

Baby, you give this life a new lease.

Burn

2009-10-09T02:07:00.003+08:00

He's falling again,
Feel his mind caving in.
For his world has taken a turn,
Now his past has to burn.

2009-09-13T01:18:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wish I could just end it all.
Fuck my life.

There's A Meaning

2009-09-03T04:12:00.006+08:00

To start drinking,

Gets me thinking,

Why this life has no meaning.

To start feeling,

Why I'm living,

Makes me realize what keeps me going.

Baby,

It's all the times

I see You smiling.

2009-09-01T04:26:00.003+08:00

Fucking two-faced fucks.

Grow a ball or two.

Fucking twat.

It Fades

2009-08-08T23:11:00.003+08:00

So long, memory.
May you Rest In Peace.

08/08/06

Moonlight

2009-07-19T02:45:00.003+08:00

They gathered as One,

Drinking for the Sun.
To be never undone,
In the Moonlight they had fun.

Four Men as One.

Back At You

2009-07-10T13:33:00.005+08:00

Don't incriminate,
'Cause You're so full of it.
So just staple gun those lips,
And let Me be at peace.

Green Eye

2009-06-29T20:40:00.005+08:00

Sitting at His corner.

Looking on with those eyes.
Those green judgemental eyes.
And as His blood boils over,
It sears his every vein.

All hail..
The Return of the Green-Eyed Monster.

2009-06-24T07:41:00.002+08:00

Getting mind-fucked. 
'Cause I'm such a shmuck.

Of Visions & Dreams

2009-06-18T13:01:00.005+08:00

A hell that he dreads reliving again.
This memory that never fails to pain.
And the fear of losing the We he sees.
This vision that seeks to haunt his dreams.

Relive This

2009-06-15T08:48:00.004+08:00

To lie next to you,
When the world stands still.
Stay awake and watch you wander,
Into a dream of splendid hours.
And by just holding your hand,
It feels like I'm reliving It again.

This world may be cruel,
But it's alright..
'Cause we're taking this step for two.

Not Just A Phase

2009-06-04T18:32:00.002+08:00

This feeling that can't be erased.

A feeling that can never be replaced.
I hope and pray it's not just a phase.
'Cause this chemistry could blow up this place.

2009-05-31T01:33:00.002+08:00

This feels just right.

A Mismatch

2009-05-26T19:43:00.006+08:00

I feel so distant.
Like a total mismatch.
But still I try,
To carry on this charade.
And here I long,
For someone to hold this hand.

Yes,
So that I can feel again.

Heels Over Head?

2009-05-26T09:35:00.003+08:00

He's reminiscing of a time.
A time when a life was short and lost.
But now His heels are over His head.
She spins him upside down.

Oh, this choice He has to make.
So fucking inevitable.

Summer

2009-05-24T10:42:00.001+08:00

DQ! This one's for Y O U! =)

Welcome to Bitch Club

2009-05-22T00:28:00.004+08:00

The 8 Rules of Bitch Club

First rule of Bitch Club is, you do not talk about Bitch Club.
Second rule of Bitch Club is, you DO NOT talk about Bitch Club.
If someone says stop, taps out or goes limp (from getting bitched), bitching ain't over!
Be proud of what you bitch about.
One bitching at a time.
Wait, screw rule 5.
Bitching will go on as long as they have to.
If this is your first time in Bitch Club, you have to BITCH!

Play These Strings

2009-05-21T16:21:00.004+08:00

This... feeling.

It feels all too familiar.
Yet, I'm fighting this war.
A battle within this detached heart.

You're tugging on my strings.

2009-05-19T16:04:00.002+08:00

I FUCKING PASSED!!!

Oovoo This!

2009-05-17T02:07:00.004+08:00

When the sun beats down, in the stillness of night,
We oovoo-ers breathe the life.
Crazy bitch rants and random headbanging.
Sultry poses and jarring singalongs.
Who gives a damn bout the unglam?

We crash the night to break the day.
Oovoo-ers, we ooze bitchay!

Be Kind Rewind?

2009-05-14T19:40:00.004+08:00

This feeling's slowly ebbing away.
'Cause in my daydreams I see you fade.
If time was kind to let it rewind,
I'll right the wrongs and make it all divine.

Slowly it fades away.
If only We can make it stay.

Haunt Me Memory

2009-05-10T03:20:00.000+08:00

There he sits.
Taking his last drag.
Daydreaming of a girl he seeks.
Twirling his drink,
He wanders into a Memory.
A Memory he must learn to set free.

The Scene

2009-05-02T18:35:00.000+08:00

There she goes.
Running.
Away from the scene.
From this Heart.
The one that's worn on this sleeve.

For Two?

2009-05-02T10:58:00.004+08:00

Is it the icy cold waters?
Or the fear of Uncertainty?
But here's my hand
As we'll be taking the dip for two.

2009-04-25T01:07:00.003+08:00

It's ok. It's alright.
They still don't yet.
I know. I tried.
No, wait...
I'm still trying.

Forever Young

2009-04-20T00:00:00.003+08:00

Hmmm..
I wonder if they celebrate birthdays in heaven.
And if you're listening,
Happy Birthday Nikki.

Don't Run Away

2009-04-19T12:32:00.004+08:00

I've kept it all hidden and disguised.
To a point where there's not much left to hide.
But there's only one thing that holds me back,
From the truth that has not be said.
'Cause in my dreams You turned and fled.
Please don't run away and leave this Heart detached.

2009-04-18T14:31:00.005+08:00

School's a bitch.

Unravel The Mystery

2009-04-16T02:46:00.002+08:00

You're seamlessly wrapped in secrets
Now, allow me to unravel them,
Miss Oh-So-Mysterious.

Oh Damn Regret

2009-04-15T12:41:00.004+08:00

This feels like a mistake.
It will be a BIG mistake.
A mistake involving 3 fucking years.

And I would like to mean something.
I want to be more than just that.
Yeah, someday...
I'll matter.

These Are The Nights

2009-04-13T02:55:00.007+08:00

Tinkling on these keys

So that you'll be at ease.
Whispering in your ear
Three words I'd like You to hear.
Tracing your lips
Oh, they both scream kiss.
Gracing your cheeks
'Cause silk never felt like this.

Yes, dreaming of these
On a night like this.

2009-04-10T20:33:00.001+08:00

Take it easy.
Take it slow.
Cause if you don't.
There she goes.

We Have Lift-off

2009-04-09T14:39:00.006+08:00

Sweep me off my feet.

I'm just tired of walking.
Tired of treading on this path.
A path strewn with broken pieces of me.

They Don't Yet

2009-03-31T23:11:00.000+08:00

I could read your lips, but they don't make sense.

They both scream kiss when your eyes don't yet.
No, they don't yet.

Out Of Stock

2009-03-30T23:51:00.003+08:00

So out of stock.
Grey Goose, where did you go?

The Bug

2009-03-30T12:58:00.002+08:00

Now I'm speechless, over the edge and just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this Love Bug again.
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this Love Bug again.

Yeah, again.
And this time, I'll set it right.
What's your next move Ryan?

Smile

2009-03-28T17:35:00.004+08:00

I'm breathing for two.

I'd break my legs falling for you
I'd give anything to purchase that smile.
Even if it only lasts for awhile.

Take A Seat?

2009-03-22T20:02:00.009+08:00

I'm sharing a drink with a memory

And a laugh with an empty seat.
So will You come now
And sit here with me?

2009-03-21T23:11:00.001+08:00

Skipping beats, blushing cheeks.
I am struggling daydreaming, of the We I see.
Yet here I lay, left in bits
Recovering from the shudders of reality.

You get me every time.

Do You See?

2009-03-20T10:16:00.002+08:00

Do you see the signs?

It would be nice if you'd notice...
Yeah, it would be nice.
Real nice.

The Plunge

2009-03-17T20:57:00.005+08:00

Will you take the plunge with me?

Will you dare to dream..
Will you dare to love..
Will you take the next step forward..
With me?

I'm not holding back from the edge anymore.
I'm not going to just dip my toes in.
Not this time.
This time, I'm diving in head first,
Into the abyss of Uncertainty.

2009-03-16T13:22:00.000+08:00

Have you ever started
That brand new day?
Had a second chance
And thrown it away?

ORD!

2009-03-13T19:12:00.001+08:00

1.. 2.. 3..

Now come on, just say it with me.

...

O R D LOH!!!

2009-03-07T22:17:00.003+08:00

I don't know what to fcking do.
So fcking lost.
I just wanna dream my dreams.
But no. I gotta come back down to Earth.
God, I seriously hate reality-fcking-checks.
I fcking do.

Pardon the angst.

Dream. Not.

2009-03-03T02:55:00.002+08:00

I should just dream small.
Or nothing at all.
'Cause when you do, you'll savour the Uncertainty.
But when you dream big, brace yourself for the big let down
'Cause it'll just crash down on you, and knock you out cold.

'Nuff said.

Schmuck

2009-03-01T02:25:00.002+08:00

What a schmuck.

This ain't how I roll.

So I guess You've changed things.

Gosh, I'm such a schmuck.

Fuck.

Oscars

2009-02-23T13:54:00.004+08:00

Heath Ledger - Best Supporting Actor

This is why I watched The Dark Knight 16 times and counting.

Obsession you say. It's an understatement.

Sorry

2009-02-15T13:39:00.003+08:00

This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the pretty things she did.
Hey, you know you keep me up in bed.
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all these fucked up things I did.
Hey, maybe, baby you could keep me up in bed.

2009-02-11T18:42:00.000+08:00

My Konstantine...

Just bring me home.

2009-01-25T00:23:00.002+08:00

All hail the Heartbreak kid.

Crossroads

2009-01-14T18:15:00.006+08:00

Here I am.

At the crossroads of my life.
I've procrastinated too long.
Yes, far too long.
All this while, wandering aimlessly.
I feared choice.
I feared change.
I failed to act.
But now's the time to set a path.
A path that makes, or breaks me.
The rite of passage, or so they say.

"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase."

Faith? What faith?
The last time I had too much faith, it backfired on me.
Still, there's no changing it.
I need the first big step.
Maybe these crossroads never existed.
Maybe it's just a manifestation of my mind.
A very cruel one, I must say.
But there's no fooling myself.

So...
what's it gonna be?

Dilemma

2009-01-04T21:48:00.002+08:00

I've got to make the right choice.

But what is the right choice?

Singapore? Perth?

Do I stay? Do I go?

What course do I take?

I hate it when I've got to crack my head up like that.

Time to consider my options.
Hopefully the right one.

2009 is starting to feel a little ominous.
It doesn't help when you lose your voice on the first day.

Turn of the Tide?

2009-01-01T11:57:00.002+08:00

Good-fckin-bye 2008!

You have not been kind to me.

So here's a whiff of my ass!

Aloha 2009!

I trust a change in fortunes.

I sense a turn of the tide.

Please don't disappoint.

Yes? No? Maybe?

2008-12-29T13:57:00.004+08:00

Living the life. Just going with the flow.
Of sweet uncertainties and kismets.
Everything seems so surreal. So unreal.
Expect nothing more, I tell myself.
'Cause all it takes is a push.
A push back into reality, to end the flow.

So maybe, just maybe.
Under the smiles.
Under the laughter.
Under the facade I've put up.
Nothing is really what it seems.

The embers seem to be glowing.
I should probably put 'em out.

What worries?

2008-12-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

All the angst and uncertainty, forgotten.
Drowned out by the myriad of laughter, dance and booze.
Soaking in the fun, thinking it was the sun.
Friendship never tasted like Havana's rum.

And we partied like there was no tomorrow.

2008-11-12T21:46:00.002+08:00

Just living out of habit.

2008-10-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

A Sign to point me in the right direction would suffice.

I Feel

2008-10-13T18:58:00.003+08:00

I just feel like a complete...

Oh bother.

2008-10-12T18:50:00.002+08:00

Let's play with fire.

And pray that I don't get burnt.

The Perth-fect Trip

2008-10-06T16:26:00.008+08:00

Thanks everyone for making it the Perth-fect get away!

I'll see you all again... someday.

Cheers!

Again

2008-10-03T12:47:00.003+08:00

I just can't help it.

I'm getting sucked into it again.

I just pray it won't spit me out.

Yet again.

2008-09-24T13:31:00.001+08:00

This is what I'm talking about...

The Oh-So-Sweet Escape.

Konayuki

2008-09-20T00:59:00.001+08:00

For my cousins. Enjoy.

2008-09-18T19:53:00.000+08:00

That was sad.

You didn't even bother.

Guess it won't matter.

Now it don't matter.

2008-09-12T16:49:00.000+08:00

When the going gets tough, the tough drink vodka.

Tough Break Kiddo

2008-09-02T22:29:00.003+08:00

Life is like a play.

Someone has to be the loser.

And I fcking hate to be it.

Leaving On A Jet Plane

2008-08-31T13:44:00.005+08:00

I need a breather.

I need the OZ air.

Oh yeah, here I come.

Viva La Vida

2008-08-29T15:52:00.001+08:00

My take on Coldplay's Viva La Vida... Enjoy!

Lock & Load

2008-08-24T22:56:00.003+08:00

Come on, steady now.

Take a deep breath,

Hold it right there.

Now, take a good aim.

Just right between my eyes.

Take your time.

And don't miss.

2008-08-16T11:55:00.000+08:00

Wishful thinking.

How dumb.

I should just wish it away.

Uck this Shi-

2008-08-16T11:41:00.001+08:00

'Mutha Uckers' by Flight of the Conchords. Enjoy!

Are You Into It?

2008-08-16T10:20:00.005+08:00

Flight of the Conchords. Enjoy!

NDP `08

2008-08-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

Happy National Day!

Back to 5 days of fixing vehicles.

I kinda miss NDP.

And I really miss the Monday offs.

Over & Out.

Loving Memory

2008-08-08T00:01:00.004+08:00

If only letting go was that easy.

God, I miss You.

080806

2008-08-02T22:19:00.003+08:00

Once bitten, twice shy.
Thrice bitten, fine,
I'll go take a hike.

2008-07-30T22:03:00.002+08:00

Fuck. I can't make up my mind.

The Dark Knight

2008-07-17T21:51:00.003+08:00

Just caught "The Dark Knight" and...

It was fantastic!

Heath Ledger was phenomenal as the Joker.

I'm so gonna watch it again.

Now... Let's put a smile on that face.

2008-07-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

Now you see me.

Now you don't

Now you need me.

Now you don't.